working it out

Class is a thing of the past, and finals are just around the corner. This is going to be a busy week, which is probably a good thing. I'm dealing better the more I keep my mind on other things, whether it be the stress of a final evaluation, or whether I'm shooting people in the head or stabbing people in the back via Team Fortress 2.

I sort've went into my early highschool dependency on computer games for happiness, which is kinda depressing from an outside perspective, but is definitely a step in the right direction for me away from the obvious. In terms of my prior "self-conflict," I haven't gotten that much better handling it on my own without distractions, honestly, but that's to be expected. The three manly essentials: sleeping, eating, and checking out teh wimmenz, have sadly each taken a toll. I even went as far as to suppress my feelings with a very much deserved night of partying. (ugh). No worries, I don't think, as with the summer approaching, drum corps will definitely keep me much more concerned with physical pain as opposed to the emotional sort. I really should get back on track physically so that I'm not absolutely hating the first few weeks of the summer.

Motivation, motivation, motivation is an ongoing struggle for me, but damn it I'm going to get this conquered once and for all. Just as soon as I'm weened off my dependency on internet shenanigans.

Gotta set a strict priority list for the rest of this week: study my head off for my 3 exams, somehow get some explanation and/or closure from her (oh damn it, and get my psp back), keep playing my instruments/getting in shape, restore my appetite, get this room packed up, and even work in time for some movies I need to watch (even though I just rewatched all the episodes of Elfen Lied today).

I need to also start looking into work/internships for next year. MTVu has a very promising representative position that sounds perfect for me, time permitting. Let's see how next semester works out for me, time commitment-wise. For now, I need to get in touch with an old, ahem, best friend. Though finding a time she's not busy is difficult, she can probably get my head in the right place before I leave everyone again for another 3 months. I hope things work out for me in the end.

"I think a great reader is able to read from the first line to the last line; if you want to do that with some books, it’s necessary to skim other books. If you want to fall in love with someone, it’s necessary to meet many people. You see what I mean?"- Pierre Bayard
Same with music, amirite?

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